I love how God allows me to "mess" up over and over again before he finally gets bored with watching me make the same mistakes and steps in to show me the way. I have heard our preacher talk on how people will associate their faith with their good deeds but I never thought I was one of those people that fell into this category. Each morning I wake up get ready for work, drink my coffee and I am just so full of life and energy and I think today is THE day it is going to be great but then 830 rolls around and I loose all my pep and excitement and even begin to grumble about silly things at work. 330 can't come quick enough and I am dying to punch out and just head home but I feel like I have failed for the day. I wasn't that happy girl that I told myself I would be today and I said that curse word when I shouldn't have. These acts are what I have been measuring myself with and worse it is how I thought God was measuring me. Each evening I have literally beat myself up over the areas where I feel like I have failed during the day and make promises that tomorrow I am going to be a better person. With expectations like this it is only natural to fail. I am just thankful God doesn't measure his love for me based on good deeds and it is ok to just be ME. I love this song and it just makes me happy that God loves me for who I am. Yes I am a perfectionist and wish I weren't but God sees past this and no matter if I grumble or become negative he loves me for me.
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Thanks for being so open! Your blog is so refreshing.
ReplyDeleteCandice, the Apostle Paul said, "I'm determined to know nothing, but Jesus Christ and Him crucified." Therein lies the key to our victory over self and the flesh. If we simply place our faith in what Jesus did for us at the Cross, the Holy Spirit will then have the latitude to help us gain the victory over the sin, the world, and Satan.
ReplyDeleteIt took me many years to fully understand the simplicity of His Salvation. But, now I know that Jesus is the Source and the Cross is the means. Just think! If this were not true, why did Jesus have to die on that cruel Cross of Calvary?
It's the Cross, Candice! That's where He shed His precious blood for the remission of our sins. Simple faith, as small as a grain of mustard seed, placed in Jesus and Him crucified, will make all the difference in the world in our relationship with our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.
I now walk in victory, but for many years, I was simply going through the motions. I'm not perfect, but I have matured and slowly, but surely, I'm laying aside the sin that so easily besets me. God bless you and your family, my friend.
BTW, I so enjoy reading about the part of you that no one sees. You have such a sweet spirit about you. Keep the faith and know that when we seek foriveness for our sins, God only sees the blood of His precious Son, Jesus Christ. He paid a price for us that we could not pay.