Change is Hard

I have always thought of myself as being spontaneous and have often stated, "I love changes", but that is all coming back to haunt me now. Josh is getting to the point where we have to make a decision on where we are going to live once he graduates. Up until now I was ready to pack my bags and head out, but now the reality of having to move is settling in and it scares me to death. The worst part is I have let the decision literally control me, it is the first thought when I wake and the last words we mutter before bed. After contemplating every possible scenario and how life is going to work out over the next year, I realized once again how hard it is to not be in control. The most humbling part of this is how God has let me try to fix it myself and then right before I breakdown He is always there to pick me up. I have been so worried about leaving my friends, Noah's Daycare, starting all over with my photography business that I have not given consideration to God's plans for me and my family. The comfort of knowing no matter where we are we are the there for one reason only and that is to be used by God. Throughout this week I have blasted this song in my car daily. I have repeated The lyrics "Jesus Your Name is Power, Breath of Living Water" over and over in my head. If there is a situation in your life and have tried everything you can possibly think of to fix it, just sit back enjoy this song and whatever is burdening your heart hand it over.